… and I can feel myself stretching forward against the elastic boundary, literally on the brink of being flung back to where I started from. The place where there are two pathways- the one I have been taking as of late, or the other one that requires so much more effort. Ew, I know.
It’s all an internal struggle that I’m mostly imposing on myself, to be completely honest. I mean, I used to try all these different tricks to pull myself out of the Dreaded Cycle of Procrastination. They didn’t really work, no matter how much I wanted them to.
And now that I’m sitting here and writing and thinking about it even more, I could be making even more excuses. I could be stretching the elastic boundary further, because elastic is meant to be stretched. But it gets more difficult to even do that, and I’ve found that continually stretching excuses just leads to an even worse sensation than the one I’d get if I took that other pathway.
And that’s why I changed the theme of this blog.
(Yes, I know, this post does not seem to be extremely cohesive at all.)
I think just the idea that it’s currently ugly-looking will kick-start some of that drive to create things that I used to have.
This is my platform to grow from, and it shouldn’t matter as much how others see it. Obviously it’s not a place for super private, personal things and stuff, but it is a place to express my ideas in a way that I enjoy doing that.
I have no idea where this will go. Honestly, I don’t know when I’ll write another post. And I also need to figure out this new layout because it’s been so long that I’ve been on WordPress that I forget where the Media Library is.
But that’s okay.