A lot of the times I don’t write because I’m scared to.
It’s not that I’m scared to actually do the writing itself, but it’s because I’m afraid that the finished result will just completely suck. That it will be terrible. That it will make the reader want to curl up in a corner and die (and not in the “oh-my-gosh-this-book-gives-me-feels” way). That’s what I’m afraid of.
I realized today that I used to be a very unconfident person.
To be completely honest, I still am quite self-conscious in the face of other people, especially when I want to make a good first impression on someone. A lot of the times I’ll end up subconsciously putting myself down because I don’t want to seem like I’m conceited, and I’ve come to see that somehow doing that is just as bad as being narcissistic.
It scares me a little bit that being positive about yourself can be considered negative.
I wonder about the future a lot.
I think about what will happen to me, to my family, and to my friends. Who will go where in life? What will happen to the rest? It’s all a mystery to every single one of us, seeing that we can’t predict for sure what will go on the next day.